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The other night I couldn’t sleep, so I started reading “Recovering Autism, ADHD, & Special Needs” by Shelley Tzorfas. Tzorfas’ writing style is clunky (she writes “The author of this book believes” when “I believe” would have done fine), but that almost made a good book to lull me off to sleep…except for the content. The beginning goes into depth exploring the dangers of vaccines, particularly discussing the tons of chemicals in a vaccine besides the virus, and how that when we only had a handful of vaccines, it was easy for the body to self-detox. Now kids get so many that the body can’t detox fast enough and what’s left goes to the brain.
It was good for me to revisit this, because I tell you, despite everything I know about the chemicals in vaccines, the effects of GMOs, the neurotoxicity of MSG, and the reactions to different foods shown by my kids, it’s STILL hard for me to embrace that autism is medical.
My thinking brain is utterly convinced, but the concept challenges my heart. I suspect this has to do, on some level, with guilt for all the vaccines, the formula, the antibiotics, the OTC medicines, the crappy food choices when I didn’t know any better. Yes, there is some guilt, but I am not one to wallow in regrets. The past is done and there’s no turning back.
I think what is really hard for me is knowing there are deceptive and evil people who care SO MUCH about the bottom line, about filling their pockets with cash, about power and fame and influence, that they absolutely do not give a — well, you know — about our kids and the damage they are doing to them. They do not care about the future of this country enough to prevent millions from growing up to be disabled adults with autism.
I’ve always been one to stand up for regular people, even at their worst. A lot of people are motivated by fear and a lack of courage, by the need to sustain their families at any cost, to do semi-questionable things or stick their fingers in their ears about injustice to get through the day. I read about these huge corporations and organizations trying to push to get the most profit they can – it’s easy to say “corporations,” isn’t it? The fact is that PEOPLE are doing it, people with their own kids, their own families, their own joyful and creative spark. They set out to destroy, hurt, sabotage, in the name of profit, and you can be damn sure that they’re using those same excuses, “It’s for my children, we need this money for college and their future!” While everything they’ve done has hurt my family, and your family if you have a child with autism, and good, decent families all over this country.
This is it, for me then. I’m done being PC, I’m done sticking up for the bad guys OR the lukewarm guy. A battle is coming, don’t you think? It’s here already. I will keep this blog running and standing strong, no matter what, and do my best to bring you the truth – and fight back against all the organization working double time to poison our children.
Never forget, there is hope, and we the parents have to be the forces for good that strive for healing. We need to band together, to support each other, and with God’s help, get our families onto solid ground. My girls are doing as well as they can, and so I offer you photos of hope from their stellar moments at school these last few weeks:
I would title this, “Essence of Zoe”! I just love how carefree and happy she is in this photo – this is her true spirit, when she’s not in pain or stuck on a scratch in her brain.
That’s my Amelia, LEADING the class in stretches which she is really good at. Rallies everyone, makes them stop in walks to do it. Don’t let ANYONE tell you people with Down syndrome can’t be leaders. That’s bunk!
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Sarah Hughes says
It’s hard to accept things we don’t know enough about.
I say stick to your guns and don’t back down on your beliefs, it is truly hard to understand anyone who chooses bottom dollars over health and wellness but some people just stink!
Gina B says
Thanks Sarah! It is hard to understand, and perhaps they don’t start out as bad guys, but I think we need to accept responsibility for whatever it is we do, even if we see no other way out.
Jessica @FoundtheMarbles says
I am all about mother’s intuition so go with your instincts and forget what anyone else says.
Gina B says
Jessica, I never think about that, lol! I’m not so good with intuition…or maybe it just makes sense to me when I call it “God leading me.”
Lisa says
See, you lost me in the first paragraph. Once I hear anti-vaccine stuff, I tune out. Believe me, I wish I wish I wish we knew the full and exact cause of autism. But we don’t. And there just isn’t any real, scientific in peer reviewed journals evidence that it’s vaccines. Just because some kids can outgrow it or learn better coping skills or whatever the case may be…doesn’t support anything, yet. I wish it did.
Gina B says
I’m sorry I lost you. The thing is, you can’t you convince me that peer-reviewed science is the ONLY acceptable science, and you definitely can’t convince me that’s it’s never corrupted by profit or intentionally misleading. I think of great medical advances over the course of history – was there always some acceptable scientific community behind it, or did scientists have to fight the status quo? Of course, great minds suffered everything from being shunned to imprisonment, because they bucked the establishment. Why would it be any different today? As for me, I have not seen kids “outgrow” autism without serious intervention that affects them on a medical or chemical level occurring just before.
Janeane Davis says
I am a mother who sometimes gets beliefs that I hold on to no matter what science or other professionals tell me. I say stick with that. All my children were vaccinated and had no problems at all. But that has nothing to do with the effect of vaccines on your children. Stick to your beliefs and work to make the world better for your babies in any way you can. In my book, the job title overrules scientist every time.
Gina B says
Thanks, Janeane, I appreciate that! There are some kids who can’t tolerate anything – not preservatives, not glutens, not sugar – my kids are not the worst on that scale, but they do have sensitivities that I’ve seen healed/cured just by changing their food. Hard to believe if you haven’t witnessed it, impossible to unsee once you have 🙂
Gina B says
Totally true! I know lots of moms who beat themselves up. No point…until they invent time travel 🙂
Colleen (Souffle Bombay) says
You hit the nail on the head – how do “the powers that be” whether of corporations or countries, live with themselves when they often choose profit, power or influence over what is right. I always wonder.
Gina B says
Thanks Colleen! I don’t know how they live with themselves. I think they pretend to themselves a lot about what’s right & wrong. Am thinking on this a lot after seeing Matt Damon’s “Promised Land” last night. Interesting twist on Frances McDormand’s character, who I see as a “bad guy” at the very end. Definitely sticking her fingers in her ears and going, “lalala.”
Lauryn says
I second Jessica, I too am very much for a mother’s intuition. It may not be explainable but that feeling is there and we as mothers should act on that feeling. I do things every day that I second guess or question or wonder if I will regret it in the long run. And there are things every day that I think about that I have done when it concerns feeding my children and wish that I would have done a better job. We do the best we can with what we have and that is all we can do. You have done and continue to do a wonderful job!
Gina B says
Thank you, Lauryn, your support is welcome! I think we all do that as mothers, 2nd guessing, taking stock – maybe a bit too frequently – where did I mess up? What can I do better? I often remind myself it’s impossible to do everything, but I know quite a lot of people who try to. It’s important to prioritize and remember that if we try to be perfect at the tasks and duties, we could miss our children altogether.
Penelope says
Keeping the hope and faith will make a big difference. As a parent, you need to be strong and show them that life is worth living.
Gina B says
Yes, it hope & faith really gets me through!
Rebecca Whitney says
We need more moms living with autism, in their homes, to speak up; especially those with a brain and articulate-enough, to be “a voice for change”. It has recently come to my attention that my 2 removed Facebook comments regarding GMO’s were indeed deleted by the lovely powers that be, over at facebook, thanks to their affiliations with the uber awesome ( <— reeking of sarcasm) Monsanto corporation. There is a growing movement of online mothers who are fed up with our children being poisoned via needles and forks and baby bottles. We DO need to stand up and speak up; other countries are and their governments are listening. While the internet is still mostly uncensored, please continue to advocate for our next generation, in this way, and hopefully you will inspire change.
Gina B says
Thanks, Rebecca. I heard of this happening with Facebook, and it’s disgusting. FB is a necessary evil in my business, but the more time goes on, the more I am fed up with it. It’d be nice if whatever new cutting edge that replaces comes people not solely inspired by profit.
Rebecca Whitney says
Amen. My husband is a techie-geek-type and is currently in school for computer related stuff (can you tell how technologically-challenged I am? lol). I was just reiterating, last night, how he needs to start up a replacement for the ever-bloated, censored social media site. He told me he has enough on his hands with his schooling, our ASD kiddo, our other 3 kiddos and his disabled wife (yup, that’s me :/ ); but when his life slows down, he’ll try to get right on that. LOL All I want is a social node where I can talk with friends/family, post pics and links to various sites and not be bombarded with far too many advertisements nor have had to virtually sign a legal document handing over all content on my “page” to the powers over at Facebook to sell or do with, as they see fit. It has become a sort of dictatorship-type of virtual country and we are all stuck with it, for lack of another option. Part of me wants to flip it the bird, but the rest of me has become socially dependent. It’s frustrating. I feel like an addict that should maybe get a patch or go to meetings or something.