I’m embarrassed, ashamed, and feel like an idiot for the posts in the last few days about my faith. I wrote a post that I meant to go one way, and then it headed off in another direction. And so the title and post name was misleading.
I later fixed it, but it gnawed at me. Someone wanted to read it and I’m sure I disappointed her. In fact, I may have lost readers. I edited the content but it was probably too late. I adjusted title of that and the follow up to better reflect the content.
All I can say is, I’m sorry.
It IS true that my faith and the journey I took with it is what helps me thrive and survive as a special needs parent (the original title). In fact, the other stuff that supports me as a parent that doesn’t come close to helping me handle this gig as a biomed mom, an advocate, a homework helper, IEP attender, political-following, blog-writing, gosh-I-need-sleep mama as God does.
What I want you to know RIGHT now is that even though I completely screwed up, I will NEVER EVER do this again. My blog titles will be about what I write in the post. Lesson learned, and future sleepless nights averted.
I beg your forgiveness.
And as far as my faith journey, I hope you don’t mind if I continue that story one day, probably soon. It – my faith – has been shaken to its core in JUST the last 2 weeks. It’s really weird, I find, how you never anticipate the actual thing that WILL happen that test your faith. NEVER.
EVER.
If I was prepared for death, it’d be illness. If I was prepared for those, it’d be betrayal. If everything’s air tight and swimming along wonderfully, it’d be that crap gets in somehow. The zingers this time included one I’d never have imagined, one I thought solved, and one I thought we were protected against.
And NO that is not an excuse. It is merely the thing that made me want to write about my faith.
So, again, I’m sorry, and if you find ways I fail as a blogger, I give you permission to call me out. (I hope you’re nice about it, I don’t really have time or strength in my life for a thick skin for THIS stuff…it’s all given to my strength as a parent.)
And if you are not seeing what you’d like to see here, please tell me that to. I want Mom-Blog to serve you better, and it can, but only if you tell me.
