I didn’t set out to be a rebel. In fact, I pretty much assumed that motherhood would settle down my wayward heart. Having a baby, especially a child with Down syndrome and a heart murmur, helped me kick out my youthful indiscretions, like drinking, partying until the wee hours, cursing. As I journeyed down this path, I figured I’d just become wiser along this path – and I have.
I just didn’t know that wisdom would make me a rebel.
I had no idea that I would change from trusting doctors with my life – literally – to trusting them about as far as I can throw them. While the team that took me through my first pregnancy were a valuable resource in ensuring I didn’t have a stroke, the team that took me through my last, miscarried pregnancy taught me that Down syndrome is considered a “good” medical reason for abortion. That was disturbing and made me quite angry. But medical science had more insults for me. Last year, watching a video of Amelia at age 2 made me realize that she might have vaccine injury (even without autism) since she spoke much better then than she does now. She does have the MTHFR gene mutation. For Zoe, the so-called “expert” with decades of experience who gave my daughter her autism diagnosis scoffed at the idea of the very diet that changed her life for the better.
So yea, we don’t really do doctors unless we need to, like for Amelia’s heart or my clotting disorder. <rebel!>
It didn’t stop there, though. 7 years ago, I had no idea that vaccines ever, EVER had side effects. While I had heard that you should note the batch number for some reason on your child’s vaccination chart, I did it. I also postponed the very illogical dosage of a Hep B vaccine at birth since *I* don’t have Hep B. Other than that, I still continued on the recommended vaccine track for many years. While that batch number precaution made me curious, the fact is that it took years and years for me to realize there was any connection at all between vaccines and illness or injury. I had no idea what an adjuvant was or that they put KNOWN neurotoxins like aluminum inside vaccines. And autism-vaccine connection? We are not being told the full story when we are told: “all vaccines are always safe all the time.”
So no, we don’t believe vaccines are healthy. In fact, we often think they may do more harm than good. <rebel!>
Then I started to learn about the food on our shelves. I ate my fair share of GMOs until the whole GMO labeling movement started years back on the West Coast. What I read about them scared the heck out of me. GMOs have been largely untested for potential, long term consequences. You can read about the connection between the rise in GMO soy and corn and the rise in allergies, as well as a host of illnesses, like cancer. It amazes me that cancer will strike 1 in 4 Americans and that it’s the leading killer of children. Glyphosate is not safe – the World Health Organization, not a group I normally side with, labeled it a probable human carcinogen. The more resistant a GMO crop is to pesticides, the more they need to spray – or invent even more toxic pesticides. And may I remind you that GMO corn has the endotoxin (a bacteria) that is lethal to pests INSIDE IT? And we allow makers of Agent Orange to create more pesticides that can kill the bug, destroy ecosystems and poison our families. Count me out.
So yea, we DON’T do GMOs if and when we can avoid them, which can be tricky at times but hey, I love my organic!<rebel!>
What about our water? In Flint, MI, where officials turned a blind eye to lead dumped into the drinking waters of the poorest communities but are the rest of us safe? Even if your water doesn’t contain lead (we do aplenty here in PA) or you don’t live in a major fracking state (again, raising my hand in PA), your water is more likely than not to be full of very high levels of a known neurotoxin: fluoride. No kidding, my own kid had fluoride poisoning from, of all things, baby vitamin drops, but if you think you can avoid fluoride by using a holistic dentist, you’re still in trouble if you don’t have a filter that can block this toxin from your food, drink, and skin. And there are plenty more toxins in our water, too.
So sadly, our local water is full of garbage and there is nothing we can do about it except to buy costly equipment and call them out! <rebel!>
This world is getting more toxic every day. Our kids are exposed to something like thousands of toxins that our parents and grandparents were NEVER exposed to. My grandmother lived 88 years, and had the flu (with hospitalization) in her mid-80s, and recovered 100%. This is a woman who had 3 kids *at home* – one stillborn – and her fitness routine consisted of an apple a day and daily walking. She died from a stroke en route to a play rehearsal at 88 years of age. My kids? Allergies, speech problems, sensory problems, disabilities, stomach issues, autoimmune issues – and oh, that apple a day? Well, it BETTER be organic. I took matters into my own hands, changed their diets, looked at detoxing and alternative healing therapies and eventually landed on homeopathy.
So no, I don’t think modern medicine helps, I think it makes things worse. <rebel!>
In writing this post I thought, wait a minute. As a Christian, I’m not supposed to be rebellious!
And then it occurred to me: I’m not rebelling against God, I’m rebelling against the world.
I’m standing when the status quo says, “Sit down and shut up!”
I’m struggling upstream when society says, “Just take the easy way out!”
I’m climbing uphill when culture is telling me, “Ride the sled down!”
I’m plugging my ears when scientists say, “Don’t worry about it!”
I’m fighting for the survival of my family and our health. And make no mistake, in this supposed land of the free, it IS a fight. From labeling where our food is from and how it is processed, to the corrupt standards of the CDC and the money trail in scientific research in general, to lobbyists for Big Food hiding in “family friendly” front groups, you have to do your own legwork to discover why rates of autism, disabilities, and SIDS is as high as it is in the U.S., why we have so many cases of childhood cancer, and why children are getting diseases now that were once reserved for older people.
I wouldn’t be here if I weren’t a mother, and I wouldn’t be here if I weren’t a Christian. God has supported me in my choices (and yea, I asked) and I will support His will for me as well.
Being a rebel has cost me, but that’s ok – I’ve gained better things. I’ve learned to be stronger, more confident, more well informed, to question my sources AND my doctors, to make my own calls, to care for my kids better, and to stop giving a HOOT about what others think of me or my parenting. I’ve learned to discern when my kids are doing well – or are not. One thing I know is how to raise a happy, healthy child – in that I’m confident and for that I’m grateful.
And hopefully, when my kids see me be strong, they will be fearless and strong in fighting for what they care about too. After all, rebels raise rebels, right?
And I won’t stop rebelling until I stop being a mom! What about you?