Today I was watching a video called “How to grow your business while raising family”, where Andy Fogarty discusses three critical factors if you want to do just that. At one point, he mentions how if you’re working really hard, you are too tired to even want to spend time with your family at the end of the day. (Go ahead, you can listen, then come back here to talk about it.)
OK, so I’m working today…and it was a difficult day. Actually, it’s been a difficult year at my job, even though we’re only 11 days in. (Hahaha.) What really struck is how true this for me, and this job is not my calling or passion. It’s a necessity, but at the end of the day, what with struggling to get in some of my own business on free moments here and there such as lunchtime, I’m totalled. I have to do homework with Amelia, and usually I’m the one to clean before and after dinner, and I’m the morning person too. I’m so drained that sitting on the floor playing Barbies or Potato Head or Dominoes sounds like pure torture.
I’m really stressing right now at work too for many reasons, and I don’t know what to do. I’m trying to be calm, cool, and spiritually collected and not freak out on the whole deal, but that’s what my gut is feeling. I feel like life is good but impossible right now, and if someone doesn’t show up with a Time-Turner real soon, I don’t know what I’m going to do. This too with only having dipped my toe into restrictive dieting and not having figured out where I’m going to put the working out I so desperately need.
The last time forces beyond my control were this stressed, I was given a spiritual time out..in the form of a stroke. Let’s hope that’s not what happens this time. Which reminds me, I need a blood test and a doctor’s visit. AUGH.