A few weeks ago, I was sent a book called Autism & Alleluias by Kathleen Deyer Bolduc. This awesome little book is more than a devotional. Ms. Bolduc relates her struggles and triumphs in raising her son, who has autism and finds answers in faith. She not only shares life stories, she also writes beautiful poetry as well.
But I’d like to tell you how this book encouraged me.
I had a great weekend this Easter. I’m experiencing an uncharacteristically “great” time in my life right now, and this holiday was no exception. It’s been a while since I even celebrated Easter with anyone but my kids, husband and mother-in-law, but a new church, an egg hunt, and spectacular weather put the icing on the proverbial cake. I went to bed even pleased with the girls’ behavior and lay down to read.
All of a sudden, I was struck with despair. You see, having 2 special needs kids has lately and infrequently made it really difficult to be around typically developing kids. I love those kids who belong to friends and family, and I’m grateful that they are healthy and whole, but it sometimes feels like my family’s struggles have been underscored in yellow highlighter when I’m with them.
Yes, I’m fully aware how petty that is of me and no, I wouldn’t change my kids for all the world, but I want to be honest about the suckitude I sometimes feel. And, of course, when things are great, especially in the spiritual realm, darkness tries to pull the wool over your delighted eyes. So I sat in bed, crying after a near-perfect weekend, and hating myself for it.
Then I remembered this book and thought maybe I could find some consolation. It being Easter, I read the chapter named “Resurrection”. In it, Ms. Bolduc encounters a man who comes from the Lakota Sioux culture, where they consider special needs people and children as “gifts from God” to teach the rest of us compassion. They are all treated with respect in that culture.
That gave me hope and inspiration. Don’t you ever get the feeling that as “advanced” as we are in this Western culture, sometimes we can be so backwards? I have never felt so passionate about something as the rights and respect of kids with special needs… and let me tell ya, in case you haven’t noticed, I’m a pretty darn passionate person.
My recommendation? Run right out and buy Autism & Alleluias. Support the author by reading her blog.
Sadly, I have a commitment at that time and cannot go or else I’d meet you there!
Thank you, Kathy, for writing such an inspiring book and for sharing your journey with the rest of us!
Post sponsored by Kathy Bolduc. All opinions are my own.